on the subway, im there alot
it takes up tons of time when you live here. what a strange place here is. this city. new york. NEW YORK.
it will eat you alive and spit you out and dare you to cry.
ok, so, on the subway, this guy comes on.
usual "i'm with the homeless sandwich guys, we feed hungry people". and he was. he had the sandwiches - ok, listen nyc is full of con artists, but these guys are the FEW who actually seem to do what they say
(besides those kids who straight up tell you, ' im sellin this candy so i got some loot and i aint stealin your kids lunch money' on the L train all the time in bushwick)
so anyways, ive seen these guys give away free sandwiches many times, and so i walk to give him some change after everyone ignores him.....a few people even mumble when i get up...and then this strange thing happens, he smiles and almost cries, cuz he is trying so hard, and the next thing you know several folks are handing it over...just a bit...and he speaks to 2 OBVIOUSLY socially challenged individuals on the train...hands them sandwiches, other food, and people start breaking out the bills......
it was a good moment. it just spoke to me. like the darkness of the LA backstreets so enamored bukowski, the moments of the humanity in this city of chaos have made me smile.
it feels good to feel, to know im alive
addition - 12/13/12
as the weeks and months have moved on to be a year and more, it strikes me that i am still walking around within this same feeling of revelry, of wonder....i am not scared of here, i am intriguided by here...this city, this new york is such a force, it has such an epic energy that just pulls you in.
and there is a depth of humanity here that is surprising
constantine
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